Faith!! Love to have faith!

(wrote this on 30th October 2012)

What is faith? Why does a person need faith?

Life is a mystery. Why things happen and who is running the show? No one knows about it, not even the brains equivalent to Einstein can figure it out. Infact the more one tries to figure out life, the more it’s a mystery. That is because life is a mystery. Life has questions, sometimes questions are hurtful, sometimes questions are thrilling. Some people hate to get confronted, but the wise ones love to be authentically confronted and grow themselves. Is growth what life is? But life is all about thoughts and most of the thoughts are questions. Life is about emotions and feelings. Just wonder as to what I mean, don’t try to figure it out! Maybe it can work! I believe in wondering!

When I sit alone with myself, which I am doing almost all the time -I usually think such questions like “Why did this happen? What’s the opportunity in this? What’s life trying to teach me, if it does teach something? (Heard about this from lots of people, someone said “Life hamesha kuch sikhati hai, kuch kahne ki koshish karti hai, samajdar ho to sun lo”) What is the good intention in this? What do I want from my life? Was this destined to happen? What’s destiny? Why do I think I am blessed? What’s my purpose to exist as a human being? What is the world of being? Why does things happen in life? Why does sometime life gives a shock? Where does my strength come from? Why does the person whom we love the most, hurts us the most? Why is life still such an amazing thing? (it is amazing, because every next moment is unknown and is a mystery, and who doesn’t like to mystery and adventure?”)

Human beings are very crazy things. When I say this, what I really want to communicate is that “I am a crazy and so is everyone”. Every one of us are jerks, none of us is perfect. And at the same time, that’s the Perfectness about human nature. That’s the way this world is. That’s the way we all are. Isn’t it?

Human beings are ultimately made up of matter. It consists of some electrons and photons, neutrons, positron and atoms, which make the whole composition complete. Then where does life come from? If we remove life from our body, we are same as the chair on which we are sitting, isn’t it? What gives us life? What is the source of our thoughts? What is the source of our birth?

I was standing on the beach one day and I was thinking, we are made up of the same sand that is lying down below my feet right now. And we will one day immerse in the same sand. Physically I am the same as sand. Everything is matter and at the atomic level we are made up of some chemical element or the other. 800 years ago Physicians and chemists had not discovered all the chemical elements that earth comprises of. But there has been lot of vigor and development in the recent research in Physics and we have discovered all the chemical elements (I don’t know about radioactive elements, hence they have discovered almost all elements). If you remember you must have learned a Chemical table in your 7th standard. It comprises of chemical elements written in 2 letter symbols, like C for carbon, H for Hydrogen, Ca for Calcium, He for Helium, etc. We have water in our body, which is made up of Hydrogen and Oxygen molecules, which is in turn composes of electrons and protons and other atomic particles. Everything is ultimately the same. There is some energy that these atomic particles have, which gives them certain vibrations. And these vibrations (energy) give the element a certain specific shape. Every nonliving thing is the same as every living thing, in terms of physical constituency. Then what’s the difference? Why are we living? And they are non-living? If we are same as the sand below our feet then why do we have so much arrogance in our being? Are we kidding with ourselves, who are we? We are nothing compared to the size of the universe. We are not even .0001 percent the size of the Universe. We don’t even know .0001 percent of the whole knowledge that is present in this world. We don’t know everything that is happening in this world and we cant even get the reason for everything that is happening in the Universe. But we still run behind some pleasures in life thinking as if we are running the world? We run behind money and fame thinking that will give us happiness. We are driven by sex and it is causing most of the problem in our life. We become big leaders and try to run the world; we succeed in it as well, but for how long? Can we really run the world, big laugh if we even think of this possibility. And most us do!

Are we not misusing our lives?

We are born once and lets live for each other. Why can’t we have trust and faith on each other?

We are not what we think we are? We are part of this Universe, and it’s scientifically proved that we are made up of the same physical particles. There is no new chemical element that we have not yet discovered on earth and in the human body. I can’t definitely talk about the Universe, we human being don’t even have the capability to explore and discover the whole of the Universe. I just realized that we name the celestial galaxies with some name, “This is the Milky Way” and we describe it with some properties, but do we really understand it? Things we don’t understand we give it a word to understand. Like we named a certain phenomenon as “Black hole” when we actually have no idea of what it is. Isn’t it a thing to laugh about? We use the word LOVE, when we don’t even have the idea of what is it, (or else we have our own little idea of what it is, lol) its like a black hole in our lives. And I bet, love and its individual understanding exist in mostly all of our lives. Feelings that we don’t understand, we give it a word to understand. I believe that’s how the term “I love you” came into existence. We feel happy when we use the term “I love you” or else when someone else says it to us. We feel loved and connected when someone else love us. Therefore I have a question, what is love? I personally think love is faith, a belief that is universal and profound. For me Love is a supreme belief that I exist and I love my life.

Most of the time we realize, our understanding of love and other human emotions is so untrue and incomplete. We all have a version of what is Love. And we think that our version or perspective of Love is true. In fact this truth changes, as the basic nature of the universe is “to change”. Lets say the basic nature is that of Transformation. It takes us thousands of Light years to even telescopically see a new star, and there are thousands of such undiscovered stars, then how can we claim to know the truth? I was meditating today about the Universe and in the end I started laughing. I was shocked that I have studied such basic Physics in 7th Standard and got the whole concepts cleared in 10th Standard, but still I never got it. I think I am something. I think and plan and act as if I am something. I think I am intelligent, I think I am a Philosopher, I think I am always right, I think I know everything, I think I can handle every situation, I think I can be with everyone, I think I can be nice to everyone, I think I was a French Aristocrat in my last birth, I think I am good-looking, I think I can be the next Bollywood Superstar, I think I will alter the world. I think I am my thought. I think I am my emotion. I laughed at my illusion and I asked myself “Who the f are you?”

Meditating over it, I got that I am nothing? Absolutely Nothing. Compared to the size of this Universe, compared to the power of this Universe, compared to the power of my own life…I am nothing. Even if I say I know around .00000000001 percent, it would be a lie. I want to have faith in myself and this world.

Meaning of the world Faith. Faith means complete trust or confidence in someone or something. Strong belief in God or in the doctrines of a religion, based on spiritual apprehension rather than proof. A strongly held belief or theory.

Why faith? Why Passion? Then why do human being tend to stick with each other. Then why do human being wanted to have faith in each other and this world? Then why do human being loose faith? Then why do human being tend to partner with each other. Then why are we made social beings? Then why do human being run behind each other to gossip, then why do human beings crave for love. The why can’t we not live without each other, then why do we have so much love for each other. Then why do all of us want to celebrate life together? We have faith, because we are made to live together.

We are the world! Now I got this term completely.

Faith is a self-generated aspect of belief. If someone influences you to have faith, it is not faith. Someone can support you to have faith but ultimately every individual has faith on something. Every person has felt the presence of life beyond their understanding, beyond their conscience. Every individual has experienced life and had felt the universal energy and power within them.

Physically we all are connected. If we can spiritually get connected, we will make each others faiths win. We will love unconditionally! We all will have a happy life.

Then why do we loose trust? Then why do we loose faith? (I just noticed, the best part is I am using the term loose, since its about loosing, I am sure we can win it back too. Whatever you loose, you can get it back –right?) To answer the question I would assert, “Basically we are not consistent in what we want”. I have seen that the biggest difficulty as a human being is that we are not consistent to ourselves. We don’t even know ourselves. Who we think we are, we are not that. Every moment in life we see that our understanding is a mysteriously incomplete understanding. The best part is we are designed like this and our purpose to live is to unravel the mystery knowing that it’s a mystery. And that’s how we grow, we somehow move to the next level beyond the previous. As the human race, we have moved from the nomadic age to the kingdoms to democracy now, from iron metallurgy to steam engines to iPad now. We are moving mysteriously and intentionally, there are some human beings who are the pillars and the driving force for this evolution. But as a human being, as an individual are we undergoing our personal revolution. Do we have faith is our own selves?

We do, but we loose touch with it. Inconsistency in this area of our lives is the breakdown. We are not consistent to what we said we want to honor in our lives and we don’t even have the capability to be it. Consistency in honoring what you stand for, can cause faith and trust in others. And since we are all made up of the same physical reality, we can understand each other better and we are bound to again trust and have faith in the bigger Universe. I want to have trust in this world, because I love this world, because I love human being. I stand for prosperity and pride for every human being. My medium is Peak Energy. My medium is connecting the mind, body and soul and uniting the life energy within all of us with the Universe energy (actually its anyways united, we are no body in front of the Universe at the same time we are the Universe ourselves).

Lets shine on, crazy diamonds (diamond is a Carbon atom arranged in a different composition to give it a different energy, shape and property; and hence it is unique from other Carbon compositions)

Shine on you Crazy diamond faithfully!